Here it is. A day I have been warned about and one that many people dread for years. One (much younger) friend jokingly called it my “situation!”
Today is my birthday and today I am forty.
With all the hype and concern expressed by others I half expected to wake-up this morning to see black skies, to have my hair fall out in clumps and to feel nothing but pain and discomfort.
Instead, I woke up to my beautiful daughters smiling and excited face, a backyard full of sunshine, breakfast and group “selfies” in bed with my kiddies, and nothing but feelings of love, gratitude and joy.
Grateful that I am still moving around this world in this body, that I am surrounded by two children I love more than anything in the world, that I can support us comfortably, that I have a incredibly supportive family, and that I am blessed with a posse of friends who make every single day an adventure worth sharing.
So what’s the big deal with turning 40? After all, isn’t it just a number?
For me forty is important and worth celebrating because of how much I grew in my thirties. Ten years ago, I spent a lot of my time focused on the past, the future; and how life, other people, and circumstances were not showing up in a way that delivered happiness to me. But through a great deal of contemplation, self-reflection, and study I have learned that nothing outside of me is responsible for my life experience. Nothing outside of me is the source of anything that happens to me.
I know that I am responsible for my own happiness, abundance, losses, bad choices, circumstances, shortcomings and challenges. And realizing this has changed everything.
So if anyone were to ask me if I would like to turn back the clock and go back to my twenties I would happily tell them that I am exactly where I am meant to be, living the life I created, and celebrating every perfect (and not so perfect) moment as it comes.
Whatever age you are today and whatever your circumstances look around and find at least one thing to appreciate, embrace and enjoy. Even if today isn’t your birthday, celebrating that one small thing will make you feel like it is!
To help you with your own celebration here is a video my 9 year old daughter played for me in bed this morning. This alone will make me smile all day long!
Here's to never growing up
With love and gratitude,